Tears fill my eyes later while listening to the car radio as Momma and I drive to
get Samuel. A song that reminds me of the ‘good ole days’ begins to play.
“Change the station,” Daniel says insistently inside my brain. “Change the station
I change the station quickly before Daniel’s voice fills my head again.
“You see Mom,” he says softly, “it’s that easy to control your emotions. You just
change the station.”
The loud disco music playing on the radio now reminds me of my days as a dancing
cocktail waitress. I wipe the tears away and smile broadly singing along to the music
even after picking up Samuel. He and Momma do not seem to mind for they are happy
to see me in a good mood.
Daniel’s essence continues to comfort and guide. Blessings flow forth on most nights,
while standing in the hall, with my hands on the wall under a collage of family pictures.
I am reaching out to the other side, where the pantry is, because that is where the
blackboard sits. It is the treasured blackboard of smiley faces that Abigail, Daniel,
and I drew together the last day I saw him in human form. A wonderful feeling of
loving energy always flows, into my palms, and wafts throughout my body.
That day stands out clearly in my mind’s eye. Abigail was learning how to draw smiley
faces on a small blackboard when Daniel arrived to pick her up. He happily joined
in on the fun. We shared a special attraction to the sun and smiley faces reminded
us of it.
Two-year-old Abigail laughed at Daniel as he drew his first big smiley face. He made
the face different from the way I did drawing big circles, for the eyes, instead
of little dots.
“That’s not the way to make them Daddy,” said Abigail laughing gleefully. As Daniel
drew another face she put her small hands on her hips, raised her voice insistently
and said, “You’re not doing it right Daddy.”
He laughed with joy when I told him it was easier for his two-year-old to draw dots
instead of circles for eyes. We taught Abigail how to draw smiley faces for the next
A Few Words About the Lightworker's Log Book Series
This book series is designed to help people recognize their true power. Humans are
spirits in physical form who came here to have certain experiences for soul growth.
These experiences were chosen by souls before birth. The human "story" is an association
with a limited body. SAM's human goal is association with the message of One.
The Lightworker's Log book series is designed to reach people in different states
of awareness. It documents an increasing awareness of Christ consciousness (awareness
of the soul’s oneness with God). Each book in the series notes a year in the life
of Lightworker SAM as she transitions from a helpless grieving mother to a self-assured
empowered Lightworker. Upon reading of the true-life experiences that guided SAM
to her current heaven on earth, the reader will see it's possible for anyone to live
joyously in wholeness, health, wealth, and love. If she can do it, anyone can.
Lightworker's Log - Transformation :-) is the third book in the Lightworker's Log
series. It is an example of one Lightworker's process on the way to the true Self.
The book highlights SAM's experiences during 2006, the year she begins to realize
why she morphed into physical form. It holds valuable insights to life on earth and
messages from the essence within. This book describes how SAM began to rise above
life’s trials to enter a world of freedom and wonder.